bereavement

Ferdinand's wife Rebecca Ellison died from breast cancer aged 34.
'For some people, feelings of grief will never completely go away.'
She wanted her twins to be in the same outfit for the funeral.
'If the right way to care for yourself is to cancel Christmas, then do so.'
'So many couples don't want to get married, but that doesn't mean they shouldn't be treated the same.'
'In real life people are not happy to talk about death.'
There is a lot I have discovered since you took your own life. Firstly, while there is no hierarchy of death where one is better than the other, it's safe to say that living a long life is at the top while a short one is at the bottom. I don't know where suicide sits, but it's safe to say, it makes other people REALLY uncomfortable. I was advised against telling people how you died. And in the initial bizarreness of picking your burial plot and coffin (and being asked whether Robert was an eco-friendly man), I erred on the side of caution. But by this 30th day, I have realised when the worst, most devastating thing possible happens, you lose the energy to maintain any artifice.