So here I am, a Huffington post blogger. I'm a (semi) lean, (not that) mean, opinionated writing machine. I've broken through my ceiling to the next level. What's the next level? Who knows? Only time will tell. I've been given a podium. I'm now able to stand upon this podium and loudly scream into the vast wilderness that is the Internet, bombarding the interested masses with my (semi) well worded articles.
Boom. Take that, English C grade.
Now. What to talk about? There's a lot going on up there in the messy closet of my mind. Should I be bitter? Should I be kind? Should I talk about war, love, life, and people? I want to express myself in the most inappropriate and offensive way, because now, I can. Technically, I always could, but this time more people will see it.
So today's topic is important, it's is my chance to captivate, to inspire, and most of all it is my chance to get avid fans. With all that outrageous self inflicted pressure in mind, I'm going to talk about regrets. I personally, regret having regrets. A regret, for me, is a failure. If you hold a regret for a prolonged period of time then you have in essence failed yourself.
Here, for your entertainment, is a list of my regrets
- Failing my major Exams at 16
- Long pointless relationships
- Falling for the wrong person
- Treating good people badly
- Old debts
- Not saving enough
- Spending too much
- Trying to hard in school to fit in
- Not being comfortable in my own skin when I was young
- Joining the military
- Not going to University
It came to me towards the end of last year that I was carrying these hopelessly, and without warrant. I don't view any of these with regret, quite the opposite. I view each one of these as an integral piece of the puzzle, that is the man I am today. All the domino's fell. They fell hard, but never the less they fell in a path that led me to what I am doing now, who I am, what I stand for, and who I'm with.
If I hadn't failed my exams, I never would have gone into the world of work. I never would have resented my co workers that much that I joined the navy. I never would have hated and been terrible at that job, I never would have joined the Army. I never would have gone to Afghanistan. I never would have gotten that disheartened with life that I decided to travel the world. I never would be where I am now, loving, living, and feeling life.
If I had saved more money, I never would have decided to stay in Bogotá to earn more cash for travelling. I never would have looked for that certain price ranged apartment. I never would've met my room mate. I never would have met his amazing best friend Elena. We would never have gotten together and I wouldn't be sitting down everyday watching the world go by with a wonderful person, and permanent smile.
Each one of these factors have enabled me to be the person I am now. Now, I enjoy the simple things in life so much more thanks to the military. Now, I write to express myself, thanks to encouragement from wonderful people around me. Now, I write for the Huffington post. I never saw myself viewing writing as my calling. Now, thanks to me, my old self, I'm living a life I would never have even dreamed of.
Don't hold those regrets, be happy. Those regrets put you where you are today.
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