Bali Nine Brazilian Had No Idea He Was About To Be Killed, Asked 'Am I Being Executed?'

'Am I Being Executed?' Heartbreaking Question Of Schizophrenic Executed With Bali Nine Duo
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A Brazilian man executed along with the Bali Nine masterminds had no idea he was about to be killed, despite a priest spending three days preparing him for his death.

As the diplomatic fallout and disbelief grows over the execution of Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran, along with four Nigerians, a Brazilian and an Indonesian, for drugs crimes, the story of Rodrigo Gularte has been seized on, as a cruel second-act.

The most well known of the execution group were always Chan and Sukumaran - the Bali Nine masterminds. They led the death-party in a chorus of Amazing Grace. They shouted them a last supper of KFC.

But Rodrigo Gularte's story was more significant and the warnings of his imminent execution were said to be lost amongst the "voices in his head".

From sad beginnings to a tragic end. Not only was he unaware of his imminent death, right up until he was shackled in chains and marched from the prison; he probably never fully comprehended he committed a crime in the first place.

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Paranoid schizophrenic Rodrigo Gularte was executed along with Bali Nine masterminds Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran

The 42-year-old was a paranoid schizophrenic and had bipolar disorder. Although sentenced to death, he thought the penalty had been abolished around the world. And he had no reason to doubt it. It had come from a 'trusted source' - the people Gularte believe monitored and controlled him via satellite through the microchip they had planted in his head.

Gularte was arrested in 2004 along with two other Brazilians for bringing 6kg of cocaine into Indonesia. A depressed teen, he turned to drugs, and was later recruited by a drug cartel.

He took the fall alone, telling police the two men arrested with him were not involved. They returned to Brazil.

A lawyer was hired, and paid, but fled, leaving Gularte standing alone in the dock - sentenced to death.

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Angelita Muxfeldt, left, a cousin of Gularte, touches his coffin at a funeral home in Jakarta

Father Charlie Burrows, a priest who ministers to prisoners in Cilacap, said he had spent three days unsuccessfully trying to explain to Gularte that his death was imminent.

“He was hearing voices all the time,” Burrows said, according to The Guardian.

“I talked to him for about an hour and a half, trying to prepare him for the execution. I said to him, ‘I’m 72 years old, I’ll be heading to heaven in the near future, so you find out where my house is and prepare a garden for me."

Gularte finally got the idea when he was shackled with chains, and taken from his cell, asking Burrows, "Am I being executed?"

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A woman displays a photograph of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Hospital morgue employees carry the coffin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Hospital morgue employees carry the coffin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Angelita Muxfeldt (2nd R), cousin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte, arrives at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Angelita Muxfeldt (2nd R), cousin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte, is hugged by relatives and friends at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Angelita Muxfeldt cousin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte checks the condition of the body of her cousin at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Angelita Muxfeldt cousin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte touches the coffin at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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Priest and nuns pray next to the coffin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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A nun prays next to the coffin of executed Brazilian drug convict Rodrigo Gularte at the hospital morgue in Jakarta on April 29, 2015. Indonesia on April 29 staunchly defended its execution of seven foreigners including two Australians as a vital front of its 'war' on drugs as testimony emerged of how they went singing to their deaths. AFP PHOTO / Bay ISMOYO (Photo credit should read BAY ISMOYO/AFP/Getty Images) (credit:BAY ISMOYO via Getty Images)
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CILACAP, CENTRAL JAVA, INDONESIA - APRIL 26: A boat carrying relatives of Australian death row prisoner Myuran Sukumaran and Andrew Chan leaves for Nusakambangan prison on April 26, 2015 in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia. Condemned Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran have been given 72 hours execution notice. The execution could be held as soon as Tuesday midnight on Nusukamban Island where they have been held, awaiting there fate since March 4th, 2015. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Ulet Ifansasti/Getty Images) (credit:Ulet Ifansasti via Getty Images)
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Large letters spell out "Keep Hope Alive", at a vigil for Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukamaran, in Sydney, Monday, April 27, 2015. Over 15,000 flowers used in the letters have been donated in support of Australians Myuran Sukamaran and Andrew Chan, who are facing execution in Indonesia. (AAP Image/Dan Himbrechts) (credit:DAN HIMBRECHTS/AAP)
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A woman lights a candle during a vigil for Australians Myuran Sukamaran and Andrew Chan in Brisbane, Tuesday, April 28, 2015. Chan and Sukamaran are facing imminent execution in Indonesia for drug trafficking offences. (AAP Image/Dan Peled) (credit:DAN PELED/AAP)
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Chintu Sukumaran, the brother of Myuran Sukumaran, arrives at Wijaya Pura Port, Cilacap, Central Java, Tuesday, April 28, 2015. Bali Nine pair Chan and Sukumaran are facing their final hours with their families ahead of their expected executions. (AAP Image/Darma Semito) (credit:DARMA SEMITO/AAP)
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Raji Sukumaran, the mother of Myuran Sukumaran (center) cries as she arrives at the port authority office at Wijaya Pura port in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia, Tuesday, April 28, 2015. Bali Nine pair Chan and Sukumaran are facing their final hours with their families ahead of their expected executions. (AAP Image/Darma Semito) (credit:DARMA SEMITO/AAP)
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The family of Myuran Sukumaran gather as they arrived from Nusakambangan island at a hotel in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia, Tuesday, April 28, 2015. Bali Nine pair Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran are facing their final hours with their families ahead of their expected executions. (AAP Image/Roni Bintang) (credit:RONI BINTANG/AAP)
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Mother and sister of Myuran Sukumaran, Rajiv (L) and Brintha (C) arrive at a hotel after saying her last goodbye to her son on Nusanbakaran Island Prison near Cilicap, Central Java, Indonesia, Tuesday, April 28, 2015. Bali Nine pair Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran are facing their final hours with their families ahead of their expected executions. (AAP Image/Mick Tsikas) (credit:MICK TSIKAS/AAP)
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CILACAP, CENTRAL JAVA, INDONESIA - APRIL 28: Brintha Sukumaran (C), a sister of Australian death row prisoner Myuran Sukumaran's screams as she arrives at Wijaya Pura port to visit her brother at Nusakambangan prison ahead of the executions of the Bali 9 on April 28, 2015 in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia. Condemned Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran have been given 72 hours execution notice. The execution could be held as soon as Tuesday midnight on Nusukamban Island where they have been held, awaiting there fate since March 4th, 2015. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Ulet Ifansasti/Getty Images) (credit:Ulet Ifansasti via Getty Images)
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CILACAP, CENTRAL JAVA, INDONESIA - APRIL 28: Australian death row prisoner Myuran Sukumaran's mother Raji Sukumaran (C), arrives at Wijaya Pura port to visit her son at Nusakambangan prison ahead of the executions of the Bali 9 on April 28, 2015 in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia. Condemned Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran have been given 72 hours execution notice. The execution could be held as soon as Tuesday midnight on Nusukamban Island where they have been held, awaiting there fate since March 4th, 2015. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Ulet Ifansasti/Getty Images) (credit:Ulet Ifansasti via Getty Images)
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CILACAP, CENTRAL JAVA, INDONESIA - APRIL 28: Brintha Sukumaran (R), a sister of Australian death row prisoner Myuran Sukumaran's screams as she arrives at Wijaya Pura port to visit her brother at Nusakambangan prison ahead of the executions of the Bali 9 on April 28, 2015 in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia. Condemned Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran have been given 72 hours execution notice. The execution could be held as soon as Tuesday midnight on Nusukamban Island where they have been held, awaiting there fate since March 4th, 2015. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Ulet Ifansasti/Getty Images) (credit:Ulet Ifansasti via Getty Images)
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CILACAP, CENTRAL JAVA, INDONESIA - APRIL 28: Chinthu Sukumaran (L), and Michael Chan (R), the brothers of Australian death row prisoners Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran, carry a self-portrait painting of Myuran Sukumaran as he speak to journalists at Wijaya Pura port after visiting their brothers at Nusakambangan prison ahead of the executions of the Bali 9 on April 28, 2015 in Cilacap, Central Java, Indonesia. Condemned Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran have been given 72 hours execution notice. The execution could be held as soon as midnight on Tuesday on Nusukamban Island where they have been held, awaiting there fate since March 4th, 2015. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Ulet Ifansasti/Getty Images) (credit:Ulet Ifansasti via Getty Images)
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SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA - APRIL 28: A woman places a candle on top of pictures of the prisoners to be executed in Indonesia, during a vigil at Martin Place on April 28, 2015 in Sydney, Australia. Supporters of Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran held a vigil tonight as the pair prepare to face the firing squad this evening at Indonesia's Nusakambangan Island. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Daniel Munoz/Getty Images) (credit:Daniel Munoz via Getty Images)
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SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA - APRIL 28: A woman lits a candle for the prisoners to be executed in Indonesia, during a vigil at Martin Place on April 28, 2015 in Sydney, Australia. Supporters of Bali Nine duo Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran held a vigil tonight as the pair prepare to face the firing squad this evening at Indonesia's Nusakambangan Island. Chan and Sukumaran were both sentenced to death after being found guilty of attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin valued at around $4 million from Indonesia to Australia along with 7 other accomplices. (Photo by Daniel Munoz/Getty Images) (credit:Daniel Munoz via Getty Images)

But exactly what lay ahead for Gularte was a complete mystery to him. Burrows said he told him that he was about to be killed, and that he had previously explained that to him. Gularte, he said, replied: "This is not right."

Burrows said: “He’s lost because he’s a schizophrenic. He asked if there was a sniper outside ready to shoot him, and I said no, and whether somebody would shoot him in the car, and I said no."

After Gularte was strapped to a wooden plank before facing the firing squad, Burrows had one last word with him. “He said, ‘This is not right, I made one small mistake, and I shouldn’t have to die for it.’ So he was annoyed more than anything else, because he’s a soft-spoken, quiet and sensitive man.”

Burrows also revealed that Mary Jane Veloso, the Filipino housemaid who was spared from the firing squad at the last minute, did not know she had won a reprieve, and had already farewelled her two children, aged 12 and six. During a final visit, she had begged for more time, arguing they will "never see me again".

Burrows said, "the whole place broke down in tears". He claims the warden and attorneys said they just had to "do their job, that there should be a moratorium".

Meanwhile, it also emerged today that in the months before his execution, Chan had written a letter to school children deploring the use of drugs.

The letter, read out by Chan from inside his Indonesian prison cells, is part of a documentary called Dear Me which has been made available to high schools in the UK and Australia.

In the video, Chan, talks about his life as a teenager. He says he was no "teacher's pet" and later got "mixed up with drugs at a pretty young age".

By 15, Chan says, he had "emerged into the scene". Five-odd years later, along with Sukumaran, he was caught trying to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin to Australia and was sentenced to death. Killed after serving a decade behind bars.

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Andrew Chan's letter that he read out from behind bars in prison as part of the Dear Me documentary

Racisim and bullying had led to Chan to strive to be "tougher" in order to fit in. Out of his 20 or so friends in Australia, Chan said, nine are dead and the rest are incarcerated.

He said: "My life is a perfect example of an absolute waste.

"Now to elaborate the effects of where I am, I've missed weddings, I've missed funerals and the simple presence of my own family.

"The hurt and pain - I don't just put it onto myself, but the pain I put on my family is agonising.

"A simple touch such as a hug is not possible for a condemned man like me. I have nothing but an iron bar to hug rather than to be embraced by those I love and who I miss."

Chan implores listeners to not follow in his footsteps.

'What you choose today will make what you become tomorrow. If you want to be a thug and a big bad wolf, I'll see you soon inside.

"But for those that want to do something in life I'd like you guys to see how important it is to put your head down and study hard.

"I hope these words will penetrate in your minds and in your hearts and I hope that most of you, if not all of you, will achieve more than I ever did."

Chan and Sukumaran's bodies are expected to arrive in Sydney tomorrow. Gularte will also be returned home, as will one of the four Nigerian's killed, as per his dying wishes.